One Word

I stumbled upon One Word 365 today. It is meant to be in place of a New Years Resolution.
You choose one word.  You don't create a list.  One word is manageable. One word doesn't require making all these goals that I fear not being able to achieve. I can do one word. 
Yes, I know it's not January 1 but it is still the beginning of something for me. I choose to start my 22nd year with a word. A word that will hopefully shape my year. A word that could shape and transform me. 
Since starting my blog, I have begun to enter a new world. I have found other bloggers who are going through life with similar struggles. I have entered into other people's wonderful stories and been transformed.  Some blogs I am told about, others I search for, and others I just happen to get to. I just happened to find Tanya's blog, Thorns and Gold.  As I read her post on her 'word', I felt as though my words were spilled out and typed by a different set of hands.  Her word is 'anyways'.  She writes that despite not being able to do things perfectly, she will do them anyways. (You can read more about it here.)
I am a recovering perfectionist. Reading that post was refreshing for me. I do not like failure or being wrong. I still do not like it but I am slowly becoming less afraid of it. Her post reminded me to do things anyways,  even if I cannot do them how I used to do them.

Do them anyway. In a new way. Do them. Any way I can. 

My heart seemed heard these words. Felt them. Let them soak in. 

I don't believe finding her post and One Word 365 today was just a coincidence. Yesterday marked 22 in my life journey and I am feelin' 22. I am loving it. I feel different. My outlook has changed. I feel like the grey cloud above my head is slowly lifting. I feel a little stronger. I feel like I want to try different things. I want to live life - even if it is from a bed for who knows how long.
So my word for this year is open. 
Open to what God has in store. Open to His plans and timing. Open to His answers to "what now?".
Open to hearing Him, seeking Him, finding Him.
Open to research, testing, and treatments.
Open to living.

My word is open and I invite you to choose your word. 
To let a word transform the rest of the year, to transform you. Even if it is May 21.
Better late then never, right?

Open my eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of your law. (Psalms 119:18)

... Open your hearts also (2 Corinthians 6:13)